I am.

I don’t think that everyone has to think about yoga all day, but right now, it’s almost as though I cant help it. Call it infatuation, call it addiction, call it what you will… I feel good, though. And that my friends, is an undeniable truth. I must say, I wish I could do a yoga bend with the best of them, but I am learning to feel happy at whatever point I am...How relavant is that to life? I get that I have to understand that it will come… not today, not tomorrow, but it will come. In the interim, where I am is where I am supposed to be.

Jimmy (the owner) was right, yoga does infiltrate your life. I’m doing this healthy thing, so I want to echo it with a healthier lifestyle.

For those of you who do not know me personally, I can out eat any human I know. I’m doing that less and less now. My portions are becoming more, well, proportionate. The ratio of food I consume balances with the energy I need. In addition, through yoga I’m learning to listen to my body more. I actually understand what it means to stop eating when you’re full. Again, if you know me, you know this is a major breakthrough.

I also notice a difference in my anxiety levels (I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder). The main contributor to this reduction in anxeity is (most presumably) breathing. Yoga has put me back into touch with deep, rhythmic breath. It’s almost as though when lacrosse, school, or life stresses me out I can now go to a place, moreover a feeling-- a here and now, a present moment. I let my self feel connected to my being: strong and rooted, calm and empowered. I take myself to the feeling of mountain pose.

I want just be... all the time.